After a pretty much horrible Monday evening with Lilly at the ER vet, Tuesday came and Lilly's doctor said she was more alert, no brain swelling and that she had used the bathroom on her own. Those were good signs she said and that things were looking in her direction - what? I seriously could not believe it. She suggested I go to work and come see her after work and that they would really pay attention to how Lilly reacted to seeing us to tell how her brain was working.
It was a long day, and my assistant principal let me leave at 3:00 so I could meet Bo there (he had not seen her yet at all since he was out of town Monday). They brought Lilly to us and she practically ran up Bo's shoulder. She was so excited to see us. We tried to keep her calm and just held her awhile. She even ate a little bit of soft food from my finger. At that point the doctor was happy with her reaction to us. She suggested to stay another night for fluids and that the next step would be to see if Lilly would eat on her own. We left feeling positive, but still uneasy. We picked up the girls from mom and dads and the rest of the night seems hazy. There was not a lot of talking, not a lot of laughter - just sort of a missing piece to the family that night since everyone was home for the first time since the incident - except Lilly.
Wednesday morning came and the vet said she had a good night - walked around outside and ate more. They said more than likely she would come home that day. I was thrilled. I had a great day at work and then I spoke to the vet around lunchtime. She said Lilly was not responding to a vision test. What? This had not been mentioned before! I was so upset. My mom went up to the vet to see her since I was at work. She called afterwards crying and saying Lilly was blind. She was running into walls, crying and whimpering. I was so upset. We had a good visit with her yesterday and now I was getting more bad news.
Bo got to the vet before me that afternoon. I talked to him on the phone and he said Lilly was just not right. He said she did not recognize him and that her vision indeed was bad. I got there, walked in the room without saying a word and Lilly still responded to me. She perked right up, tail wagging and into my arms. She seemed to have some sight to her and the vet did the test again and said there was more reaction in one eye than the other. She said there was nothing more to really do there. She said if we took her home we just had to monitor her eating/drinking and medicines. She said give her time to heal and she will become familiar with her environment, smells and sounds. She said believe it or not, most dogs her age go blind anyway. She said some dogs are blind and the owners don't even know it because their other senses take over so much. I felt very confident about taking her home. Lilly was even responding to words like "home" "treat" "ride" and "greenie." So, the vet was not worried about her hearing. So, we left and brought her home. We made the laundry room her new room and got her acquainted to the yard again. That first night was hard and we all knew Lilly was not herself. She was "lost" in a sense that she did run into things. She would do circles in the yard. We had to feed her by syringe. I am not going to lie - I was scared. We were up with her off and on through the night with medications and feedings. It was pitiful and it reminded me just like taking care of a newborn.
I stayed home from work Thursday to take care of her. Bo went out of town. That day I did not see many improvements in her until about 6:00 pm. I had my moments of breaking down seeing her in this condition. Bo and I talked on and off through the day. How long do we give her? What if she does not start eating on her own? Is she happy? When will her "sparkle" be back? I think all of conversations ended in tears.
Then that evening things changed.
1.My mom came over to help me out and brought Chick Fil A to us for dinner. We tried giving Lilly some chicken and she ate it. That was a big deal - she could eat on her own!
2. My dad came to see her - she recognized him!
3. I took her outside and a dog that she normally goes crazy about walked by. Lilly did not respond to her. Then, I picked Lilly up to come in and she started huffing and puffing, tail wagging looking at that dog. The dog was too far away for her to just smell it. And the dog was not making a sound, so she was not hearing him. Lilly was seeing.
All of us were so excited. We were seeing improvements in her already.
So, I continued to give her meds and let her rest in her crate. When the girls went down I just cuddled with her on the conch in the blanket that she loves to lay on. I was exhausted but up again with her at 3:30 and 5:30 for meds. I got ready for work and my mom felt confident to watch her and the girls that day. I went over the "medicine chart" we made and all of her syringes. Mom brought some "Ceasar" soft food and Lilly downed it on her own. Mom said she had a pretty good day but that she still thought Lilly responded best to me.
Friday night Bo brought home Olive Garden. Lilly was pretty much the same but still ate and drank more on her own.
Today has been great. First, she ate her regular food from her bowl for the first time. She went to the vet this morning and her regular dr. was happy with her progress. Still, one eye is better than the other. She was happy with her eating, her weight, her walking, her reactions, etc. She said to give her plenty of time and that even she had a blind dog and that he is happy, gets around fine and does great in the house and yard. She said her sight still had time to improve, but I should not stress if it doesn't. She said Lilly will adapt and soon be her own self living her new life.
I got back home with her and it was like Lilly was the same old dog. She walked around the house fine. She found her dish bowls on her own and ate/drank from them. I took her outside and she even started climbing the stairs to come back in. She is going potty when we take her. She is walking great - she is now brushing against us and walking, brushing against us, and walking like she wants to know where we are in relation to her. She is getting around the house much better. She has not even been in the crate today aside from her nap and we even went ahead the made the laundry room back to normal. The only thing she has not done is climb the house stairs and been around the upstairs on her own because we are afraid she could fall through the railings.
I am shocked, happy, surprised, amazed - I just cannot believe it. She has improved so much and seems to be determined to adapt to her new life. We are so proud of her for fighting. She is still bruised on the side of her head. Sometimes she is unbalanced and wobbly - especially on the kitchen floor. If she gets "lost" for a minute, she just stands in place - like waiting for help from one of us to show her the right direction instead of getting herself hurt. She has gone back to her food bowls this afternoon and ate some more. I still feel sorry that she is dealing with this, but it is much better than the alternative. I cannot get the picture of her in that road out of my head but then I see her in the house and I am just so glad she is home. I know she still has a recovery ahead and we are making sure she is resting and not having too much stimulation. Love you so much Lilly!
The girls have really handled everything well. They talk to her and pet her. They understand she cannot see well. Emma understands why Lilly does not sleep with her and she has not once cried or not slept well even though Lilly is not with her. Right now Lilly is sleeping in her nice, bedded crate beside our bed. The girls also ask at random times to say a prayer for Lilly. It is so sweet to hear them thank God for Lilly being alive and telling God that we are so happy Lilly is getting better.
We will keep updating on her progress, but for now we could not be happier about all she has been able to accomplish in less than a week. Sweet doggy!
She is such a big part of our lives - more than I even realize now. She has a portrait on our wall, there are dog things around the house - crate, food, dishes, leash, etc. Her name is embedded in many different passwords that we use. So many of our daily routes revolve around her. When she was not here for two days it was really weird not doing certain things that we are just use to doing for her. There are so many books and toys that the girls have about dogs and it just makes me think of us having Lilly. Her little looks, stares and attitudes are such a part of us and were so missed recently. Bo and I miss her sleeping at the foot of our bed.
Tuesday afternoon, about 24 hours after accident
another Tuesday night pic - Bo seeing her for first time
Wednesday night - first night home - a little drugged up!
Saturday - off to the vet for follow up appointment! (notice how she is looking toward left where her dominant eye is now)
Saturday afternoon - found her bowl again!
I don't think she could do a thing right now to make us mad. In a way, I think she is loving all of the recent attention. She has certainly been the center of it the past few days. Sometimes you just don't know what you have until you almost lose it out of nowhere. This little dog has seen us through some hard times and we are going to see her through her hard time just the same.